Log 43 -- 1 May 2026

It's May

Iiiit's Checknote Day! Only 10 weeks left until the first anniversary! It's petrifying how time flies... In the meantime, I'm coming up on my last days of lecturing. Two of my courses have effectively ended at this point, and the others will reach their ends in the coming week.

One of the things I'm not quite ready to do yet is say goodbye to folks I might not see again.

Some folks are graduating this year, and have no need to show up again. Others, I simply won't have a class shared with, and I have no other means of contact with them. And even then, outside of texts and calls, everyone will be gone for some n weeks.

I'm worried that, not seeing some folks again might drain my morale for quite a while -- though the bigger concern is the fact that my summer might be without a job, so I'd have to put myself to work. And you know I have things to work on, but I'm not the greatest self-boss.

...I suppose that's no excuse.

That's especially no excuse for what feels like my own giving up. I haven't been nearly as passioned in... a lot of the everyday. And chances are it'll get worse after leaving my dorm and going back home.

It may still be getting worse even now. I sure hope not.

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